Heart pounding, the screen blurred. Oh, I’m crazy. What makes me think attempting this is a good idea?
Nevermind I have relentlessly prayed over this for years.
I know I must do this. But, oh, what if I fail, what if I am a fool, what if this frightened, sickening feeling never goes away?
“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.” Isaiah 26:3 ESV
As scared as I was, I knew I needed to go ahead, to attempt what some said was impossible.
I had worked for years. And it was time to attempt the impossible. Run after the dream in my heart. Any success would be His.
This entire endeavor was about Him. Not my talent or my skill or my ability.
That took away some anxiety. If success was not met now, I trusted Him. I trusted Him with the timing. But I had done my part.
And I would never know if I didn’t try.
Lord, if you can use this, take it, have it, it is Yours.
My heart slowed. Peace rested on me- His peace. Yes, I would do it. I would ship my meager offering and see what He did with it.
Whatever the outcome, I knew I could trust Him. I could submit my actions, hopes, and dreams to Him.
Are you struggling with submitting something to Him? Does the weight of it worry your heart and work your mind?
Let the words of Isaiah still your frantic mental motions: “You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You because he trusts in You.”
Oh Jesus, let us each learn to sweetly surrender all things to You.
Prayer: Dear Lord, You know. You know my struggle with obeying, with doing my part, in the things that just seem too big. But God, thank You. Thank You for the promise of peace as I train my mind to stay on You. In Jesus‘ name, Amen.