I shook my head in irritation as I stared at the numbers on the stopwatch. Why can’t I catch up to the “average” run speed for my age? Because you have a scarred lung from cancer treatment, a voice inside my head answered.
But… I wanted it anyway. I saw others on the trail, speeding past me and I knew I was too slow. Frustration mounted. My self-esteem suffered. All because I fell willingly into the trap of comparison. This isn’t just a 21st century issue. Paul addresses comparison and judgement in the book of Galatians.
“If anyone thinks they are something when they are not, they deceive themselves. Each one should test their own actions. They can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else. For each should carry their own load. (Galatians 6:3-5, NIV)
Instead of comparing my time or speed with others I should be accepting of myself and (at least mentally) applauding my own efforts.
I realized when my mental comparison conversation ensured, my mental health and my relationship with God suffered.
The only notes I should allow myself to compare are how I did previously against how I did today. Knowing some days will not be as strong (did I sleep well, am I fighting a cold, or is humidity hindering me?) I need to celebrate my dedication and determination to continue trying.
I need to praise God for what I can do and for the very fact I am cancer-free.
When viewed through that lens, a few numbers on a stopwatch pale in comparison to a disease-free life. When I consider that, I wonder when I got so fickle.
Do you too struggle at times with comparison? Maybe it’s where you live, or how far up the corporate ladder you still need to climb. Maybe it’s your child’s accomplishments or your own relationship status.
I think we’ve all been there. But we don’t have to stay there. We’ve heard it before and know it’s true: Comparison kills.
It kills as it flings discontent.
It kills as it fertilizes defeat.
It kills as it feeds depression.
You and I are new creations in Christ. God has a unique plan for each and every one of us. We only need to fix our eyes on Him, and not those around us. Because He’s saying, My dear child, I gave my life for you. You were worth it. I can’t love you anymore than I already do. Achieving your goals won’t bring more love from me.
If you too, struggle with comparison, He’s willing to help you and I fix our eyes on Him instead of becoming distracted and discontented by the successes of those around us. Let’s ask Him for help with just that.
Prayer: Dear Lord, You know how my gaze strays. Help me to celebrate others while acknowledging my own accomplishments. Let me not compare the distribution of Your gifts. Help me keep my eyes on You, and to sincerely thank you for my gifts. In Jesus’ name, Amen.