One day I awoke to the realization I was in the wrong.
I had been drastically hurt and blinded by that pain, but no excuse. The anger, irritation, frustration and disbelief had smoldered into the belief that I was right, end of story.
But that wasn’t the end of the story. When I awoke to this truth, I was astonished. My response had been wrong. And it had cost me more than I bargained for. What I had done had not honored God. It hadn’t modeled His character.
Was I too late?
Scripture says, “Do not fear, for the Lord Himself will fight for you.” Deuteronomy 3:22b (NIV)
Well, it might be too late to salvage my situation. But it’s never too late to change my attitude or my actions. And I could change my fear into faith that God would stand behind His word. He would fight for me.
He had proven so many times He was fighting for me- even as I was stubbornly stuck in a rut of my own making. I did not need to fear. If He wanted to, He could and would clean up my gigantic mess. And if He chose not to, He would show me what to do after I did what I could.
But He’ll never give up on me.
If there is one thing I know after walking with the Lord for decades, I know He can be trusted to fulfill His promises. Now, I know that fulfillment doesn’t always look like I might want to author, but I know I can trust Him. He is good. He loves beyond anyone imaginable. I just need to patiently wait on Him.
That’s the hard part. Because there’s not much in me that wants to be patient. Or learn patience. But I know I can carry that to Him too, and He will once again come through, supplying my every need.
Do you too, need God to fight for you in some way this week? Do you too, need to learn patience as He prepares you for the next thing? Will you join me in prayer for just that?
Prayer: Dear Lord, Thank You for fighting for me! Thank You for patiently waiting for my stubborn streak to wear out. Thank You for the promise to supply me every need. Even the need to come to You, and with great humility, ask for Your help. In Jesus’ name, Amen.